Every pregnant couple must visit their first foetal development scan with a huge amount of excitement and a slight degree of nervousness. You sit in the waiting room with a thousand thoughts running through your mind but one in particular kept jumping out for me at least...I just want the sonographer to say that our baby was normal and healthy.
I'm sure many of you have experienced the anxious waiting room moments before the scan or perhaps hours if you received treatment at the RUH in Bath! You try and give a reassuring glance to your wife or partner whilst holding their hand, balancing the anticipation of seeing your little miracle of life for the first time coupled with the "What ifs?".
I was in total awe for the first few minutes of the scan, looking in at something so precious and beautiful, the excitement and adrenaline streamed though every inch of my body. In those few moments it seemed that my whole perspective on life was changing....it dawned on me that I was going to be Dad and all that it would entail!
Within seconds I was brought down to earth with a huge crash, it felt like somebody had squeezed the life out of me and wouldn't let go. There was a problem with our baby.
The sonographer tried her best to be gentle with us and not upset us but we were both looking very shocked. She couldn't be sure but she thought that the baby's stomach was showing an unusual outline on the scan and we would need to come back in a weeks time to see if it had corrected itself.
We were devastated that evening and for a good few days afterwards, nobody could really tell us what was wrong and it was a waiting game. As the rescan date approached I tried to stay as positive as possible but couldn't shut out a nagging thought that everything wouldn't be alright. Our close family and friends were amazing at giving us support through that week and boy would we need it.
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